Well I'm alive, but I have hurt myself

Well the issue has been faced head on. I have to just wait and see what happens now. I handled it in the best way I could. I am still enemy number 1, but I was expecting that. Though however much I prepared myself for it, it still hurt a lot to be completely blanked by someone I care about.
Now it is time to stop thinking about Soul Survivor and think about Holiday club. It kicks off officially on tuesday, but I'm on the go all day tomo with practices and planning. We had our first stage rehearsal this afternoon and i have hurt myself already. I cant do anything without causing pain, a lesson i have to learn.
Please pray, im scared by all the pain.